Starting New

As most people know, I am returning to school in just one short week.   

This last month has been nothing but stressful.  Up until yesterday, we did not have an apartment to live in.  We had been looking for months but due to unfortunate circumstances nothing seemed to work out.  This along with many other things, just things were grim.  

I'm not going to lie... I am terrified of returning to school.  I know very few people, and not only am I returning to school, I am doing this in a new town... Far from family and friends.  This will be my 10th home in less than four years.  Not of my own choosing just in many cases I have to move due to job opportunities and schooling.  My last semester at school was hard.  I was very pregnant at the time and the number of glances I got made this point obvious.  

Throughout this past year I have been trying to be optimistic about the move.  I will finally have my Teacher's College portion of school done and over with.  But in the back of my mind from time to time I wonder if it is worth it.  I don't make new friends very easily.   It's not that I am anti-social, it just takes a long time for me to open up to people.  

This along with a new church.  In my first few years of university I church hopped.  ALOT.  I never found a church that welcomed me.  They all had their cliques and it was very difficult to open them up.  The few people who did actually talk to us made it clear they were not interested in getting to know us any better than a simple acquaintance.  I'm praying God places us in a church we can attend without feeling like outsiders. A church where people ask how you are doing and actually care.  

Though I am nervous/terrified, I am thankful that we are making this move as a family.  We are getting our first apartment (though tiny it will be our own place) since we have had Peyton.  In many ways, it will be a fresh start.  

Please keep our little family in your prayers.  God provides and I do think we are going to see this in the near future but I feel like I'm getting ready for my first day of kindergarten all over again.  Taking it all one step at a time, that's all we can do.